It's completely obvious, even if Dean doesn't want it to be, that he hadn't known the amulet wasn't there. The hands at his throat seem practically frantic, and Sam's worry just grows.
How could he have not known? And if he hadn't known, how is he so sure it's not lost? Of course, there's always the possibility that that's a lie, one meant to reassure Sam just the way Dean had done while Sam was dying in his arms a month ago. 'It's not that bad' and 'You're fine' and whatever else he had said as Sam's consciousness and very life had faded.
He'd been wearing the amulet then. Sam can remember clearly it pressed to his own chest while Dean had felt out the damage, the wound at his back.
He wouldn't get mad at Dean for losing it, though, sometimes shit like that happens, and he knows Dean would feel bad and guilty for losing it enough for both of them without Sam expressing disappointment.
The amulet hadn't started out as Dean's. It hadn't even started out for Dean. There hadn't really been much meaning to it at first other than "thanks for being better than Dad," which, granted, was a big part of their relationship, because Dean had always been better at taking care of Sam than John was. The decision to give the amulet to Dean hadn't been a long thought-out one. It was made in the moment because Dean had shown he cared more about Sam and his happiness by trying to make Christmas special for him. Had even tried to give the credit to John, like he'd deserved it. For all of that, Dean had deserved something from Sam. The amulet had been a way to thank him.
But to Sam it had really gained more of its meaning through the fact that Dean had cherished it and kept it on him all these years. The fact that it represented something to him made it represent something more to Sam. But as far as he was concerned, it being lost or being gone would hardly erase their entire relationship.
So he's not mad. He's worried. He's worried what could have happened to Dean that he would have taken it off and forgotten about it. Or lost it entirely. It's Dean he's worried about, not the amulet. Not an object. His older brother.
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How could he have not known? And if he hadn't known, how is he so sure it's not lost? Of course, there's always the possibility that that's a lie, one meant to reassure Sam just the way Dean had done while Sam was dying in his arms a month ago. 'It's not that bad' and 'You're fine' and whatever else he had said as Sam's consciousness and very life had faded.
He'd been wearing the amulet then. Sam can remember clearly it pressed to his own chest while Dean had felt out the damage, the wound at his back.
He wouldn't get mad at Dean for losing it, though, sometimes shit like that happens, and he knows Dean would feel bad and guilty for losing it enough for both of them without Sam expressing disappointment.
The amulet hadn't started out as Dean's. It hadn't even started out for Dean. There hadn't really been much meaning to it at first other than "thanks for being better than Dad," which, granted, was a big part of their relationship, because Dean had always been better at taking care of Sam than John was. The decision to give the amulet to Dean hadn't been a long thought-out one. It was made in the moment because Dean had shown he cared more about Sam and his happiness by trying to make Christmas special for him. Had even tried to give the credit to John, like he'd deserved it. For all of that, Dean had deserved something from Sam. The amulet had been a way to thank him.
But to Sam it had really gained more of its meaning through the fact that Dean had cherished it and kept it on him all these years. The fact that it represented something to him made it represent something more to Sam. But as far as he was concerned, it being lost or being gone would hardly erase their entire relationship.
So he's not mad. He's worried. He's worried what could have happened to Dean that he would have taken it off and forgotten about it. Or lost it entirely. It's Dean he's worried about, not the amulet. Not an object. His older brother.
"What happened?"